And I still think of you very much.
I miss your "boo!".
I miss your "dear dear".
I miss your look when I said you turned fat.
I miss walking you home.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Thanks Xiao Shu!
Firstly, Julia, thank you once again. I cannot imagine what would have happened if it wasn't for you. Thanks for delivering the cookies and the letter.
Next, Uncle Vernon, my Xiao Shu! Thanks for bring my brother and me out yesterday. It really brightened my dull periods~ New shirts, new jeans. THANKS! YES MAN!
Finally Jennifer replied my SMSes. Most probably is because she read the letter and understand my plans. Well, now at least I can still message you. Contented enough.
舊愛還是最美 is really a nice song~
Written on the 24th December 5.40pm.
Next, Uncle Vernon, my Xiao Shu! Thanks for bring my brother and me out yesterday. It really brightened my dull periods~ New shirts, new jeans. THANKS! YES MAN!
Finally Jennifer replied my SMSes. Most probably is because she read the letter and understand my plans. Well, now at least I can still message you. Contented enough.
舊愛還是最美 is really a nice song~
Written on the 24th December 5.40pm.
Monday, December 22, 2008
Cookies baking
Didn't manage to write a post yesterday due to my faulty computer.
Went over to Adrian's house to bake some Christmas cookies for her. Thanks Adrian.
She on another hand might not want to see me anymore, not even as a friend. This is bad.. I seeked help from Julia, asking her to bring my cookies to Jennifer. I believe Jen will not feel good seeing me, that is why she chose to avoid me. Nevertheless, the cookies have to be delivered. It was a Christmas gift planned two weeks ago.
Jen told me, not to pin too high of a hope in anymore relationship between us. But I decide to wait. I want to give you the space you need, and also give myself the time to settle down. If we are meant to be together, waiting should be the best option for me now.
Hope you enjoyed your facial with your laopo yesterday~ You told me your activities before we separated and the Monday facial with your laopo was the last of it. Which means i would have no clue of the whatabouts of you from today onwards.
Wrote some messages in the card which is going to be delivered to you along with the cookies. Well, the message is not all true. I am not doing very good. I am still thinking about you. I had to lie to you because I want you to feel better after knowing my 'made-up' situation.
If only I had the abilities to 带你远走高飞。
Written on the 23rd December 8.00am.
Went over to Adrian's house to bake some Christmas cookies for her. Thanks Adrian.
She on another hand might not want to see me anymore, not even as a friend. This is bad.. I seeked help from Julia, asking her to bring my cookies to Jennifer. I believe Jen will not feel good seeing me, that is why she chose to avoid me. Nevertheless, the cookies have to be delivered. It was a Christmas gift planned two weeks ago.
Jen told me, not to pin too high of a hope in anymore relationship between us. But I decide to wait. I want to give you the space you need, and also give myself the time to settle down. If we are meant to be together, waiting should be the best option for me now.
Hope you enjoyed your facial with your laopo yesterday~ You told me your activities before we separated and the Monday facial with your laopo was the last of it. Which means i would have no clue of the whatabouts of you from today onwards.
Wrote some messages in the card which is going to be delivered to you along with the cookies. Well, the message is not all true. I am not doing very good. I am still thinking about you. I had to lie to you because I want you to feel better after knowing my 'made-up' situation.
If only I had the abilities to 带你远走高飞。
Written on the 23rd December 8.00am.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
The introduction
Lost. I lost someone very important yesterday. I also lost myself today.
She was the girl who made those smiles on my face possible. She is Jennifer, 18 years in age, and is studying in the same school as I am.
I have to thank my cousins, Ben and Julia. If it was not for them, I might not have know Jennifer. I was invited to their chalet and so was Jennifer, who happens to be Julia's classmate. There was a celebration of one of their classmate's birthday and I could still remember clearly the first few words Jennifer said to me. She was offering my the birthday cake and I kind of rejected it, "NA, take the cake la!" Well I care less about the rudeness and took it.
Then I was a somewhat emotionless guy, I do not smile, do not cry and I do not get angry. During the few days stay at the chalet, Jennifer ENTERED my life. I smiled whenever i see her at joy. I immediately realised that she is the one. I thought and still thinks that she is the girl of my life.
We had our happy moments and we shared our sad problems. She told this, "then you have to stay happy always okay?" "I think for me to be happy, I will need you. Let's share burdens." i replied. I requested her to be my girlfriend less than four days of knowing her existence. And she nodded.
She told me not to let anyone know about our relationship. I didn't query nor did i hesitate. I thought, other people do not have to see how much i love you.
She wanted a broke up 2 days ago, but I only agreed to it yesterday. Yesterday morning, I went over to her place, waiting for her at 'our seats'. She didn't come down. I went home feeling terrible, I was not ready to let her go. Evening, i went over to her work place, hoping that she would see me at least after her work ended. She agreed. I was not allowed to call her 'darling' anymore. Pain was the word.
After our talk, she said she needs a break, she was tired and stressed up. I had no choice to give her the break she wanted.
I am sorry to hold you up for so late that night.
Today, I didn't know what was right. I told myself that I will continue to win her heart when she is ready because I do not want my happiness to slip away. Then again, I am afraid she wouldn't give herself and me the chance. I will not give up though.
I looked into the mirror and i can't seem to find the smile you gave me.
She was the girl who made those smiles on my face possible. She is Jennifer, 18 years in age, and is studying in the same school as I am.
I have to thank my cousins, Ben and Julia. If it was not for them, I might not have know Jennifer. I was invited to their chalet and so was Jennifer, who happens to be Julia's classmate. There was a celebration of one of their classmate's birthday and I could still remember clearly the first few words Jennifer said to me. She was offering my the birthday cake and I kind of rejected it, "NA, take the cake la!" Well I care less about the rudeness and took it.
Then I was a somewhat emotionless guy, I do not smile, do not cry and I do not get angry. During the few days stay at the chalet, Jennifer ENTERED my life. I smiled whenever i see her at joy. I immediately realised that she is the one. I thought and still thinks that she is the girl of my life.
We had our happy moments and we shared our sad problems. She told this, "then you have to stay happy always okay?" "I think for me to be happy, I will need you. Let's share burdens." i replied. I requested her to be my girlfriend less than four days of knowing her existence. And she nodded.
She told me not to let anyone know about our relationship. I didn't query nor did i hesitate. I thought, other people do not have to see how much i love you.
She wanted a broke up 2 days ago, but I only agreed to it yesterday. Yesterday morning, I went over to her place, waiting for her at 'our seats'. She didn't come down. I went home feeling terrible, I was not ready to let her go. Evening, i went over to her work place, hoping that she would see me at least after her work ended. She agreed. I was not allowed to call her 'darling' anymore. Pain was the word.
After our talk, she said she needs a break, she was tired and stressed up. I had no choice to give her the break she wanted.
I am sorry to hold you up for so late that night.
Today, I didn't know what was right. I told myself that I will continue to win her heart when she is ready because I do not want my happiness to slip away. Then again, I am afraid she wouldn't give herself and me the chance. I will not give up though.
I looked into the mirror and i can't seem to find the smile you gave me.
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